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I promised that I would start to write in this again so here...
This week has been well interesting...
We had our soccer playoff game which we lost 6 nothing. This was rather depressing!I had to play feild the whole game and well I sucked! I can say i was the cause of the first 2 goals ( at least contributed). It also was really just horrible to watch another girl in net letting goals in when I could do nothing. I never really thought it would mean so much to me. When I'm in net sometimes I wish I was out and playing the feild but now I reallized that I am not comfortable on the feild. I love playing net and it is really important to me. Back to the loss we only had 12 players that means 1 sub. Certain ppl were on vacation and i just didn't come (stupid Bitch)! The thing was that only 3 ppl including me really cared if we won or lost. They really weren't into it!
Anyway enough on soccer I could go on and rant more about the possible coach for next year but I will spare u all. So I'm up here at the lake and we have had horrible weather. It has been rainy and stormy. So I haven't been able to go out and to see ppl.
To make things stranger I reallized that I am hopelless when it comes to boys. I forgett how to flirt and I really can't even speak around them. I have become a extremely shy person in general. I hardly talk and when I do no one understands what I'm saying. Back to the boys thing. Ok... Korey tries to be nice and polite and I think I come off like I don't care or at least like an idiot who doesn't speak.
So I have had my period which complicates things this weak because I have been so tired I haven't had the will to get up before 10am the whole week. I haven't run on account of the large bruise covering my knee from the Bitch I was covering in Soccer(She told her teamates she was going to punch me... instead she went cleats up on my knee). The bruiseis just an excuse I could run if it would stop rainning(treadmill is at home in MA*tear*). I really need to get on some Yaz for the whole sleeping 12 hr. when I have my period thing!
To add to all this today was my first day Cashiering at Heaths. So I am learning all this new stuff. I have to bike to work because I was stupid and didn't get my permit untill 8 months after my b-day! So today I started work. I met some ppl. The person I really like so far is irronically another Brittany. She reminds me of Kelsey N. She is quite random... she also has a issue speaking not sure if it is a lisp or something else... but she is wicked nice and talks enough to make up for my lack there of.
So Brittany in a way to get to know me asks if I have a bf which of cource I don't. And she says "yea me too, but I like someone I work with" And I said "yea me too" She was like "really who?" I told her and she was like rlly? She likes him too. Hahah! weird right! So to add more complication to my life I find out I have competition! GGRRR... but I felt bad when she said that he would probably like me not her! I of cource said that wasn't true... but I still feel bad because this summer is possibly my last up here and I really want to make 6yearsof crushing on him come to an end and he and I dateing. He has always been the guy I could think about whenever my current crush turned out to be an ASS (which was all of them!), and it would help me get over them.
Friday I have an college visit. I am going to the Coast Guard Accademy. It should go okay... I mean that is really my number one school I'm looking at right now. Thursday I also have my first summer league soocer game which hopefully I'll be able to make!
Well I think I am done telling you my life story lol!
~Brittinith
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| FUCK BOYS!!!!! |
[06 Jun 2008|06:15pm] |
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So I wrote before that I forgave Paul... FUCK NO!!!! I learned today that he blocked me on AIM!!!!! WTF? How is it that I like the guys who r clearly paranoid, gay, ass holes, douches, (add more obscenities here)!!!!!! Like wow am I really that pathetic? I ask the kid to prom and then he blocks me WTF!!!! I really am just so fucking glad that I'm spending the summer at the Lake!! I'm not going to any soccer camps (How i met Paul)! Really this is just stupid! WHY? WHY? WHY? are the boys I meet ridiculus? I just can't freaking believe it!!!!!
I mean I was surprised when John accepted my add friend on facebook because I would expect rejection from a guy like him... but Paul now that is just FUCKED!
On a lighter/happier note...I really am thrilled to be going to the Lake after refereeing tommarow! Yeay for people that aren't ASS HOLES! hahahaha
I am so happy that I am going to PINGREE!!! For all of you this is the Soccer tournament that is if you win ur grouping in ECYSA soccer. This is my first time in all my years in soccer and I am thrilled!
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[04 Jun 2008|06:01pm] |
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This week has been really strange!!!! I managed to actually accomplish something on my english project! haha! The thing that has really been messing with my head is..... well some strange things happening with the boys in my life. The other day started rereading my lj i went all the way back to 8th grade when someone posted some horrible shit in my comments. This so called anonymous person I had always assumed was Matt L. Well looking at them again I noticed something I had not noticed before. The UTC for Matt and the anonymous were not the same! (Not to mention they really did not sound the same or like Matt in any way.) The anonymous' UTC, however, was the same as one of my (so called) friends! They were in fact friend here on lj! They were actually one of my oldest friends! I practically lived at her house all through elementary school!! Wow! What a FUCKING BITCH! Seriously that is not the important part thought(ironically enough)! The weird part is accepting that Matt never told be to go kill myself (as bad as that sounds)! It really has opened my eyes! He was still a jerk but so was I in 8th grade! It makes Advanced Acting very different! Today was so much fun(and Matt was there lol)! I guess what I'm saying is that I am really forgiving him...the fact that I thought it was him was what was stopping me! Ya he still acts like a jerk sometimes (he yelled at me once during Advanced Acting...more like flipped out actually) but with just the four of us in class...it really seams that there is no bad history between us! Even weirder is that this week I realized that the reason Paul said no to going to prom with me was most likely because he was going to Cape Cod for Memorial Day weekend with his family. On his facebook he has like 5 friends from the cape to I figure he probably has a vacation home there or rents one (yes my skills at figuring these things out are scary good). One of these friends left a comment saying she could not wait to see him Memorial Day Weekend. Since usually I would go up to the lake on Memorial Day Weekend... this seams a reasonable thing to guess. So the fact that I still like him is not such a bad thing anymore(also a bad thing because I was trying to get over him lol)! Now I have no reason to hate him!*tear* To add more confusion to all this...this summer I will be living at the Lake! This means that I will see Korey (who I have liked for about 6 years)! For this reason I HATE te feeling that I like Paul. I want desperately to like only one person! Liking two just complicates things!Anyway I think I am done writing my life story here! SORRY!
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| HELP!!! |
[02 Jun 2008|11:49pm] |
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Does anyone remember who this was icaretoomuchxx here on lj? Really important!!! I was reading all my old entries and I foret and it is killing me!
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[02 Jun 2008|09:38pm] |
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I haven't used this in almost a year!!!! So this summer I am spending on Lake Winnepasaukee!! Which is awesome!! and kinda sucks! I love it up there and i have a summer job =)! The sucky part is not seeking all my friends!!! Plus I don't get to do summer soccer! =(! I also don't get to do summer softball! =(! I do get to make friends up there though!!!!!!!!!! =0 so exciting!! So as our last scene in theater we have to do this 4 person scene! AAHHHH..... like working w/ Matt once wasn't enough! But this one is worse! He is supposed to kiss my character and not just once!!!! WTF!!!!!! We r changing it but still .... it is going to be weird! I don't want him even holding my hand! I remember two comments some one anonymously posted here!(Had to have been him)They told me to commit suicide. My forgiveness was working until he yelled @ me about half way through this year. (me forgive who would have thought huh?) And yet I am clearly going to have to be the bigger person! Well I guess I'm done ranting!lol!!!!!
~Britt
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[05 Jul 2007|03:29pm] |
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I turned 16!!! Finally!!!! lol! I got a cool camera. I also realized that My sister has a very negitive affect on me. I wish that I hadn't come home last night. I wanted to stay up at the lake all week. I was finally making friends up there. Korey learned my name and which house I lived in! I seriously was having more fun than I'd felt in a long time. GGGGRRRRRR!!! Surprisingly the worst part of being up there was my BIRTHDAY! I hate how selfish I am, but For my sixteenth birthday I was hopeing for more.
list of thing i got:
1 Cannon Power Shot(I asked for this)
1 Dress(I was there when my mom bought it)
1 Stuffed Shakespear doll(My sister came up the day before my birthday with no gift. My mom had to run out and find something.)
Scrapbooking kit.(I haven't used my scrapbooking stuff ever)
Yes that is all my parents got their sixteen yearold daughter. My dad even spent the entire day complaning about how much he spent.
My parents promise every year to go out in the boat to see the fireworks. Once again they backed out. I could have stayed the rest of the week but my parents were complete jerks. So another horible birthday.
I would like to thank those who remembered my birthday. I will be having a party at some time.
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[27 Apr 2007|11:03pm] |
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So today was interesting. English class was of cource boring. French i think I did ok on my test. I worked on my song in Musical Theater and Mr. D and Julia said it's perfect for me. Theater I did my warm up which was hillarious!!! It was a sceane where the interigator has the suspect beated up by an invisibal man!!! LOL! Then in theater we watched a movie. Bio was fun we made food webs! Cutting and pasting is fun! LOL! Then Math was funny cause Mike K. was participating in the day of silence. His jokes are funny on a whiteboard.
Then came the Battle of the bands!!! It was A M A Z I N G ! The first band was like a combination of everyone just screaming. Then Nick S. played guitar by himself for like forever. Hes good but.... come on boring!!! Then came Cronus. They were the best BAND. Matt, Doogie, and Keith were great and you could kind of here Matt. Shashi was next he was amazing. Then came the biggest surprise. Shot down by Sunrise was Great!!! Their my kind of music. The lead singer is Hot. He is like a young Garard Way!!!! I was like OMG!! I turned into a totally giggilly girl. Most people would have been shocked. Stadia was great! Peter has the best singing voice! Thanks for Nothing finished off the battle. They were of cource AMAZING!!! I <3 Jay!!!Hes so great!! Hes also a little bit Georgeous!!!!
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[21 Apr 2007|11:06pm] |
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I got my new 80G ipod!!! I'm so happy!!! Sorry I haven't updated in a while. Life has been pretty crappy but it's looking up right now. Softball is the reason for this for some reason i am not being my pesimistic self. Sadley my love life is still noexistant.
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| You scored as Sociology. You should be a Sociology major!
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What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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[31 Jul 2006|10:57pm] |
So I haven't updated in like 6 months!! So heres the news. Latley I have been reunited with my family friend Ryan. I went to soccer camp and made new friends. Not to mention met a totally hot guy!!!! Hes cute and my kinda cool! He is a soccer goalie! hot! Can it get any better! Oh yes it can! He goes to St. John's Prep! Oh yes!! I got his sn but hes in SC! Bummer!!!
Anyway more news. So this summer I've been going up to the lake and I really like this guy named Corey. OMG!!! He is like perfect! I'm really working on becoming friends and being more open and out there! I'm trying my best to meet new ppl and make friends without anyones help.
but back to Corey! He's 17 and he is like a huge Red Sox fan! He loves his Dog. she is so sweet!! Chloe is a golden retriever and so cute!!! Today He was out on his flat tube for tubeing floating w/ chloe! It was the cutest thing like ever! He is so georgeous!!! I know I sound like a rambling girly girl but when i'm happy I'm happy!
I am not in the mood to tell all the bad!!!
Heres a short. My sisters a whore! A BITCH! And I'm very Depressed!
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| Uncomfortable Survey |
[23 Jul 2006|07:41pm] |
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-Longest relationship:
never! Haven't had a B/f
-Shortest relationship:
never
-How many people have you broken up with?
none
-How many times have you truly been in love?
I'm thinking one time. Yet there have been ppl i can't get over.
-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you?
none
-Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with?
haven't been w/ anyone
-Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
yeah, cause they hated me
-Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
nope
-Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend?
nope over crushes yes
-Are you happier single or in a relationship?
wouldn't know
-Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend?
nope
-Have you ever been cheated on?
nope
-What is your favorite thing about the opposite sex?
hair shoes and arogence
-What is the best part of being in a relationship?
Wouldn't know
-What is the worst part of being in a relationship?
see above question
-Worst relationship?
I don't have one!
-Have you ever had your heart broken?
YES
-Have you ever broken someones heart?
No
-Do you talk to any of your exes?
Don't have any
-If you could go back in time and change things to where you you could still be with one of ur exes would u??
Nope, I don't have any
-Do you think any of your exes feel the same way?
sure
-What is your ideal boyfriend or girlfriend?
Good looking, arogant, soccer player, actor, smart, likes me, easy to talk to, cannot be a yankee fan
-Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
i think i'd be a great girlfriend because of my ignorece
-Have you dated people who were not good to you?
nope
-Name your most memorable ex if you have had 1..
haven't
-Have you dated someone older then you?
nope
-Younger?
nope
-What is one thing that all of your exes had in common?
don't have any
-Say, who is the most attractive ex that you have ever dated?
see above
-Do you regret anything that you have done with a boyfriend or girlfriend?
haven't had any
-Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over a boyfriend or girlfriend?
over a crush yes
-When is the last time that you were in a relationship?
never
-Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
yes
-Believe in love at first sight?
yes
-Ever dated two people at once?
no
-What's the perfect date?
the movies
-Ever been given a promise ring?
no
-Do you want to get married?
yes
-Do you have something to say to any of your exes?
no
-Ever stolen someones boyfriend or girlfriend?
nope
-Ever taken someone elses boyfriend or girlfriend?
see above
-Do you believe in true love?
YES
-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
Way worse
-Do you think that you will/or have found the love of your life?
hopefully
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| Funny shit |
[09 Apr 2006|07:02pm] |
| You Are The Godfather Ice Cream | 
Someone crosses you, and they'll end up with a scoop of this in their bed |
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[09 Apr 2006|06:47pm] |
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So don't you just hate when you like someone you hardly ever see. Life is suck a BITCH! I either like people I never see or they outright HATE me. Balls of fun right? Hell will freze over when I meet someone who will like me back. I miss hanging with friends so bad. Something is always in the way. Play, sports, or parents! If you really like someone tell them right? Well how the hell do you do that when you can't see them? I'm always either to forward or the opposite. If I ask for your sn they know I like them. They become defensive and so forth. Someone please explain to me how to get to know someone without being forward.
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| I'm So FUCKING PISSED!!!!!! |
[26 Mar 2006|07:21pm] |
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Today at 7:20 on Sunday night I am told that my softball coach wants me to chose work softball over work. Crappy right? Well guess what I then find out.......... We had practice on Saterday and No one fucking called me to let me know so I didn't fucking go! Thanks alot bitches!!!! Half the fucking team has my number!!!!! cWhat the fuck were you thinking? Try to make up for this come on just try! now she is going to be even more pissed at me! Yeay If that an't the best thing ever. To know your friends don't help at all. Yea i'm more than fucking pissed!!!
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--BAND/CHOIR KID—
[ ] Sung/played for state and city officials
[x] ever had to walk heel toe/with folder in left hand
[x] can keep perfect rhythm
[ ] Ever had a pin shaped like a harp
[ ] been proud of hitting a high c (haha there was a time...)
[x] the words sweat, robes, feathered hats, and bright lights don’t make you cringe
[ ] know what chromaticism means
[x] Spit doesn’t scare you
[ ] You’ve ever had practice at 5am
[x] You’ve had a big black (blue) folder with your number on it
Total 4
--REDNECK--
[ ] You have a couch in your front yard or porch
[ ] You drive a four-wheeler
[ ] Ever said “git ‘er done!”
[x] Like to get dirty
[ ] Listen to country music on a regular basis
[ ] Have a broken car in your back yard
[ ] You own a cowboy hat
[ ] You have more then 4 different animals living in your home
[ ] You have watched the blue collar comedy tour more then once
[x] You live on more than 1 acre
Total 2
--GOTH--
[x] You enjoy art and literature
[x] Most of your clothing is black?
[x] You think about death often, but not necessarily suicide
[x] You are extremely quiet and reserved
[x] You’ve been called “freak”
[x] You’re pale
[x] You like Hot Topic
[ ] You enjoy Tim Burton movies and Danny Elfman’s music
[x] You prefer to be alone
[x] You’d rather stay home then go out
Total 9
--THESPIAN--
[x] Been in a play.
[x] Seen more then one Broadway show willingly
[x] Been in a musical
[ ] Been part of “crew”?
[ ] Your current job/school major involves theater in some way
[ ] Want to end up working in/for theater
[x] Can recite all of the lyrics to your favorite play/musical
[x] You break out into random songs whenever/wherever!!
[x] You know who Gilbert and Sullivan are.
[x] The words: “act well your part” mean something to you.
Total 7
--PUNK/SK8TER--
[x] You like to skateboard/ rollerblade
[x] You wear converse high tops
[x] You do stupid, hilarious stuff with your friends
[ ] You have gotten in trouble with the Cops (cops didn't get involved)
[x] You watch the x-games
[ ] You have many piercings
[x] You like/wear a mohawk
[x] You wear Band t-shirts?
[x] You have called someone a poser recently
[x] You do, or try to play the guitar
Total 8
--PREP--
[ ] You say the word "like" all the time
[ ] You shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/AE/Aero (FUCK NO)
[ ] The people in Hot topic scare you
[x] You giggle a lot when you’re with your friends?
[ ] Have/do you watch(ed) LAGUNA BEACH?
[ ] You like pop/rap music
[ ] You want/have a little dog
[x] you laugh a lot, even when not necessary
[x] you disguise pain with a smile (don't goths do the same if we all locked mopey how would have any fun at all?)
[ ] You pretty much do what all your friends do (follower, not leader)
Total 3
--STONER--
[ ] Your hair long/in dreadlocks
[ ] You own more then one tye-dye shirt
[x] You want to save the animals.
[ ] You smoke marijuana on a regular basis
[ ] You think war is unnecessary
[x] You like classic rock and music that doesn’t involve singing
[ ] You’ve done every drug out there
[ ] You’ve ever talked slowly and with no emotion
[ ] You have no plans for the future
[ ] Bob Marley is your hero
Total 2
--GANGSTA--
[ ] You act ghetto sometimes
[ ] You wear do-rags
[ ] You like hip-hop and rap
[ ] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?
[ ] Do you believe he's alive?
[ ] You like afros
[ ] You have ever “izzled” a word
[ ] You have had your hair in corn rows
[ ] You own any Baby Phat, G-Unit, or FUBU
[x] You can cuss like a sailor and still kiss your mom.
Total 1
--EMO-
[x] You cry often and are probably on depression meds
[x] You wear band t-shirts/hoodies
[ ] You listen to emo bands
[x] People don’t understand you
[x] You write your own poems and keep a journal.
[ ] Ever dyed your hair red, black, and then swept it over to the side (Re but not black and not slept to the side)
[ ] you wear girl pants and eye liner when you’re a guy
[x] Usually lonely
[x] Is "Ohio is for lovers" by Hawthorne Heights a good song?
[ ] You wear thick-rimmed glasses and tight t-shirts
[ ] You’ve ever been to the warped tour
[ ] You can relate to Holden Caufield, and know who he is.
Total 6
--JOCK--
[x] You play every sport known to man (in gym)
[x] Men in tights don’t bother you
[x] Your hair is short and to the point (point? and it's short for me)
[x] You wake up before 6 every morning
[x] Do you own any pairs of shorts
[ ] You call girls “hot” instead of “beautiful or pretty”
[x] You want to be at the beach or on the field right now
[x] You hate off season
[x] you’ve ever had athlete’s foot
[x] you’ve broken more then one bone or sprained ankles more then once
Total 9
--GEEK/NERD--
[x] You wear glasses (hardly ever)
[x] You get good grades
[x] You use an inhaler/are allergic to many things
[ ] Phys-ed was not your long suit
[ ] Your mom buys your clothes
[x] You’re often on the computer
[x] You get picked on
[ ] You look forward to homework
[x] You’re shy around the opposite sex (It really depends)
[ ] You play video games religiously
[x] You know how a pc works and how to put one together
Total 7
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| My Lovely thoughts on Valentines Day |
[13 Feb 2006|10:09pm] |
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Ok First It's a Bitch. A halmark holiday made exspecially to cause the most pain for people like me. First being single all my Fucking life makes me an expert on how bad it sucks! Second I have an older sister who everyday comes home to tell me all about the guys who complement her and tell her she is great. She has like 400+ friends mostly guys here on myspace! Third it is a day which she can tell me all the great details of her date. YEAYE....ha not! Like I Fucking give a fuck about the guys she likes! Fourth the day's sole purpose is to celebrate love? Whats that? More like I want every whore, bitch, prep, cheerleader, dancer, popular girl in my school to spend one year going through one year like mine and tell me Valentines day is great! part five one day entirly devoted to the fact that the guys I like will get tuns of girls to flirt with them. I will spend the day watching this trying not to choke on the LOVE of my daily life.
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| Winter Ball |
[31 Jan 2006|06:58pm] |
It was loads of fun. I dressed up YEAY! It was so cool dancing is fun! They played a lot of rap but it was cool! He accually played dancing music! Yeay everyone looked butiful and a lot of fun things happened. Hhehhehe YMCA was great!!! Along with the electric slide. It was hard to do the special slide thingy we didn't have enough room. So many guys looked so HOTT.. I won't name names do to some loud mouths lol!!! If you want more call ot talk to me or (people could read my friends only journal)
~Brittinith
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| WTF? |
[03 Jan 2006|07:46pm] |
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Happy New Year to all.
2005 sucked beyond all means the worst year of my life.
I'm being very optimistic.
Well ok trying.
It's 2006 and my life so far I am looking forward to.
If for any reason I can't make my life even a little better this year I fear I will give up entirely!
That would cause a complete shut down in my life and mind.
*(raises a plastic cup with coke in it)* To 2006!!!
~Brittinith the Pirate~
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